Still hanging on....

It's pouring now. Been pouring since noon. As the wretched weather continued on, my concentration drifted..

My thoughts drifted..To so many issues and scenarios.. hmmm...

It is impt to know what u want.And when u do,stay focussed. Coz what u focus expands...That's very true.

Right now,I'm still waiting for phone calls for interviews.I've sent out tons of resumes. But as many of u knw,it's competitive in the banking industry.esp if u are only a fresh grad.

Waiting for 2recruitment agencies to call now.One for the ML job,the other's a temp job. When will they call?! The wait's antangonizing...

Just recently,it dawned upon me tt i'm afraid to take the 1st step. 1st step to working to what i want. It is easy for me to stay focussed. To start,tough.

Looking for job hinges on a whole bunch of luck. I guess i'm lacking in tt department for now. But,heads up! Life can't be at the low all the time. =)

The kind of job i wanna do requires exp and i'm only a fresh grad. So,i guess i've gotta start slow. A baby step at a time,maybe frm temp. Gain exposure and build network.

I can't thank everyone enough for their advice,guidance and concern for me all this while. My dear,my gfs,my mum,QM,Colin and many others. Thanks once again.

I'm hanging in there.......

Jay's back.........!!!!!!


Yipee!!! The much anticipated Jay Chou's new album is finally out! Still Fantasy is the title. And the wait is worthwhile. He is super duper talented man! I've really gotta hand it to him. Most accomplised and popular artist in Asia. Not to forget... cute looking too!! *winks*

His new album is filled with loadsa great tracks. Fast songs,slow romantic tracks and some jazz flavour in it too. He is versatile. Not many artists these days can carry off so many diff types of music. He can do rap(fantastically!),love songs,jazz,acts and he compose lyrics and music for himself and many other artists too.

Seems like i'm promoting him eh? Nah..I'm just full of admiration for him. Now..i just can't seem to stop listening to his new album..esp. track 5 ( 退后）. So for all of u that have not gotten his new album,go get it now! =) back to jay...

Slowly but surely...



It has been a week since the release of my final yr results. I've come to term with my results. Disappointed i may be, i will not and must not let it dominate me. Academic qualifications are impt,but it ain't everything..I'm back.........!!!!!!!!! hahaha....


Finally,I'm looking for jobs again.. Started a few days ago..This incessant job search is taking a toil on me and many out there,i reckon. Well,what to do? Just continue to have faith and perserve. Thanks everyone for trying to cheer me up during this week. =)

Still keeping my fingers crossed..Hope to get short-listed for the ML job..

To Syah,Caixia and Stephanie.. U gals have started week for abt a week already. Hope u all are coping well. Jia you! *hugs*

Shopping tmr! Yeah...!! Retail therapy always help,always rejuvenating...

WHY DOES IT HAVE TO BE ME???!!!!!!!!!!


I've worked hard for it. So hard..only those close to me knows how much effort i've put in for my exams. Last night, some pple were happy with their results and some weren't.

Sadly, I belong to the latter. They say, "God helps those who help themselves." I have worked hard,but where is God in all of these. For the past 22yrs, I have experienced more heartache and disappointment than happiness. My life is screwed up. Perhaps i should resign to my cruel fate.

From having a pathetic childhood,almost nonexistent family,disappointing grades(not like i've not studied!!),countless heartaches to now... Screwed up uni grades(2nd lower).

Some pple got their 1st class honours(congrats,i knw u deserve it). Some deserve their 2nd upper(like Qiao Ming) and some don't! Those tt don't..U dun even study till a few weeks before exams(never consistent). Assholes! Someone who got 2nd upper knew tt i'm upset abt my grades had the cheek to call me and tell me this," I dunno how did i get the 2nd upper. My grades are seriously no good."

In my mind,i was like," What the hell?! Trying to rub salt into my wounds is it?" I am disappointed in her. She of all pple... i dunno what to say...

2nd lower class to alot of pple is still considered not bad.. To me,that is just not acceptable. I have failed myself. Yes,i have! I locked myself in my room and cried till my eyes were swollen for an hr + . Sorry to those who called me and i refuse to answer or talk.

As of now,i'm still hurting. I dunno how to deal with the pain. Cry more? Eat like there's no tomorrow? Exercise till i'm so jaded tt i collapse?

My heart refuses to accept what my brain already knows. Anyway,thank you my dearie for always supporting me. Thank you Syah,Qiao Ming and Adrain for trying to comfort me last night...........................