WHY DOES IT HAVE TO BE ME???!!!!!!!!!!


I've worked hard for it. So hard..only those close to me knows how much effort i've put in for my exams. Last night, some pple were happy with their results and some weren't.

Sadly, I belong to the latter. They say, "God helps those who help themselves." I have worked hard,but where is God in all of these. For the past 22yrs, I have experienced more heartache and disappointment than happiness. My life is screwed up. Perhaps i should resign to my cruel fate.

From having a pathetic childhood,almost nonexistent family,disappointing grades(not like i've not studied!!),countless heartaches to now... Screwed up uni grades(2nd lower).

Some pple got their 1st class honours(congrats,i knw u deserve it). Some deserve their 2nd upper(like Qiao Ming) and some don't! Those tt don't..U dun even study till a few weeks before exams(never consistent). Assholes! Someone who got 2nd upper knew tt i'm upset abt my grades had the cheek to call me and tell me this," I dunno how did i get the 2nd upper. My grades are seriously no good."

In my mind,i was like," What the hell?! Trying to rub salt into my wounds is it?" I am disappointed in her. She of all pple... i dunno what to say...

2nd lower class to alot of pple is still considered not bad.. To me,that is just not acceptable. I have failed myself. Yes,i have! I locked myself in my room and cried till my eyes were swollen for an hr + . Sorry to those who called me and i refuse to answer or talk.

As of now,i'm still hurting. I dunno how to deal with the pain. Cry more? Eat like there's no tomorrow? Exercise till i'm so jaded tt i collapse?

My heart refuses to accept what my brain already knows. Anyway,thank you my dearie for always supporting me. Thank you Syah,Qiao Ming and Adrain for trying to comfort me last night...........................