Emotions* ... Destiny* ...

After a while....

2007-03-03T15:29:00.000+08:00

Haven't been blogging for so long.. Kinda almost forgot tt I've got a blog actually! So awfully tied down at work,gym and catching up with frens.

OT till 11pm last night and slept till abt 12pm today. Haven't slept enough since CNY's eve. Finally caught some beauty's sleep. But missed gym. Bummer!

For pple who read my blog, may think my blog's getting boring.. Just talking abt work,bf and frens. I don't have as much juicy blog entries as other bloggers, i reckon. Tonned down my social life quite a bit. Work's partially the reason, i guess.. =)

Davis, how are u doing back in Australia? Lora, how are you babe?! Shu wen babe,hope all's working out for you fine. =) hmmm..... miss all my dear frens who i used to be close to but haveb't been meeting up with. Everyone's so busy.. tke care anyway,yep? *hugs*

2007-01-21T13:11:00.000+08:00

Welcoming the new yr can't be more perfect than with ur loved one. And i did. With my dearie. It's been a great one yr with my dearie and dear.. "U are the best! Muacks! " =)

Been soooooo busy lately but managed to catch up with my best friend, Davis recently for a quick lunch during a work day. He travelled down to Raffles place to meet me. Nice to meet him after so long. Caught up.. and this dude is working in UBS as an intern. Lucky ass! Lol! But I'm happy for him.. =)

On Friday,finally met up with Trina & Tracey despite everyone's hectic work schedule. I've not met these babes in like ages. All of us have been so busy with work every since we got into the working world. But they are still my close frens nonetheless. Ate backed rice and mudpie @ NYDC and had a long talk at BK after dinner...

Tracey told us something shocking which i never thought tt wld ever happen. But Tracey, i hope all the best for you. Just wanna u to be happy. Trina, hope u and Robin will be together for a looonnngg time. *hugs tightly* =) tke care, u gals.. meet up soon..

Splendid Christmas~~!!

2006-12-30T20:56:00.000+08:00

It's been a few weeks since i last blogged.
Work's been piling up and i'm way over my head.
It's been hectic and fast paced tt when i get back hm,i just don't hve mood for anything.

However, i would rather be bz anytime then to slack ard in office.
The hectic reporting is going to commence next week on 2nd Jan while everyone is still enjoying
their hols... Hmm...

Sm frens thoughtI've forgetted them coz i've not really been in contact with them much.
Sorry pple.. I don't mean to. We'll meet up soon,k? *promise!* =)

Back to the topic : XMAS! It's my fav time of the yr. Past xmas has been just about
clubbing but now tt don't mean anything. I can't comprehend why sm pple are still
so into clubbing and superficial.

Some pple wld knw what i am talking abt. Facades..It's all abt tt. Putting up a show
to look good and to impress...sometimes to even be someone u r not.

Now.. To me, family,loved ones and good frens are all tt are important compared to those
fleeting moments of glam and attention.
Geez.. kinda sounding like an anti-clubbing individual.
hahaha!!! =)

This Christmas, I spent it with my dearie and his family. His bro whipped up a really
fab meal for all of us and thanks to Jay for the red wine! It was niceee.... =)

Vivo was jammed packed with pple on Xmas Eve but thankfully we made reservation
@Modesto's.

Had a delicious dinner of pasta and calamari and was enjoying the waterview too.. =)
Afterwhich,we headed back hm for a nice quiet Xmas eve.

2006's coming to an end and i hope it's been a great yr for all.. =)

Till 2007......

Finally!!!

2006-12-13T21:49:00.000+08:00

Last week was totally madness! I did OT till at least 10pm everyday from Mon - Fri !

Had so much work to do, irregular eating habits.. unhealthy lifestyle and lack of sleep..

Was extremely tired and weak by Thurs and almost fainted in the train..

Hmmm.. but i reckon it's just a matter of getting used to it.
It wld be like this at the start of every mth.. The job's interesting and fast-paced.

Made quite a few mistakes but i'm glad my team leader and colleagues are
understanding and forgiving.

I will learn well from my mistakes and ensure tt i don't make the same mistakes again. =)

Throughout this bz period, I'm really glad tt my dearie has been really understanding
and supportive, giving me encouragement and love.

Thank you, dear!! *muacksss....

Well,now it's the "low period".. not so bz..

I can spend more quality with my dearie, mum and good frens..

Thanks to many of my friends for being understanding tt i've been really bz of late.

You've all been reallllllyyyyyy nice. =)

Shopping + Great Food !!!!

2006-12-03T18:25:00.000+08:00

It's been quite a while since I've wrote an entry. Been awfully busy with work and shopping on weekends.. Hahaha! Just got my 1st paycheck. =) *delighted*

Last weekend..

Last weekend, I've bought 3 flower skirts , a few plain skirts and tops.Retail therapy never fails to brighten up my day. =) Absolutely pleased with my purchases..

Met Eric on Sat along the way and we went to Genki Sushi @ Marina Sq. Been craving for sushi for long and i finally got to eat it. Beautiful lightings @Marina Sq atrium.

After a whole day of shopping, we went to Starbucks and had my fav Caramel Machito! Talked till 10+ abt life and the future... Hmm.... Saw The Amazing Race Clue Box outside Suntec - my all time fav reality TV show.

On Sunday, I treated Edwin and Ignatius to my fav pizza place (California Pizza Kitchen) and Haagen Dazs. Ordered Edwin and my fav Milan pizza and tried a new pizza (Chicken Chipotle).
Had alot of diff flavours of ice-cream after tt. So full! Sinfully good! =)

This weekend..

Went to collect my new Biopass passport with my dearie. Pretty nice. There's a microchip and antenna in it. They open @8 and i was there ard then but the q was insanely long! These pple stayed overnight outside the ICA building or something?! Madness!

After which, we headed to Harbourfront. Wanted to suntan but the weather was not on our side. Sadly, we hung ard Vivocity and waited for Ignatius to come down and join us to watch Flags of Our Father.

Heard there were some bad critics abt this film. The pple who thought it is bad have horrible taste. The movie was soooo good! It's not ur conventional war flim. I like the way it's filmed and taking into account diff pple's perspectives. =)

Met Rongyin and Sylvester after their movie @Vivo and went groceries shopping. They were going to make Mexican wraps for us. It was one of the best Mexican food i've ever tasted. They shld contemplate on opening a restaurant! They can cook pretty well..

After dinner, we put up the Christmas lights and deco. Christmas is ard the corner! Yipee! My fav festive season! =) In the festive mood now....

Thanks alot, guys! I had a great Sat and Liverpool thrashed Wigan by 4goals AWAY!! A round of applause for the entire team, esp. Bellamy(who finally redeemed himself and shut the critics up!),Kuyt and Gerrard! =)

Shoppin' @ Vivocity

2006-11-21T22:51:00.000+08:00

Weekend...

Finally! I've finally been to Vivocity. It's gigantic man! Well,it's bigger than Taka but i dun think it is really bigger than Suntec..Maybe abt the same? Not too sure... Was more preoccupied in exploring the place & shopping ard..

The nice glistering flooring, big spacious shops and many fab brands! So many of my fav brands all under one roof! =) Had such a great time window shopping.

Pay's not in yet..can't exactly get anything.. Bummer! I've already shortlisted alot of stuff tt caught my eye.. My poor dear had to drag his feet and wake up so early in the morning to see the doc & shop ard with me. Thanks,baby! Ya da best! *hugs*

My dearest & me... My charming Edwin...

Seaview of Vivo behind us...

Me sipping my fav My dear posing for me..
Caramel Macihiato..

Posing for dear.. =)

Tuesday...

Went for a run after coming back frm a long day at work. Totally refreshing! =) At last i could find some energy in me and time to log online to surf the web and do my blog.

Been listless these days. Still trying to cope with the working lifestyle. Things are still pretty alright,i reckon. Looking forward to my 1st paycheck this weekend...and it's shopping spreeeeeee time! Yipee~~~!!! Hahaha.....

Guess i'll stop typing now.. Gotta sleep early. A major client is coming down to the co for a meeting.. *yawns*

Slyvester's Bdae Chalet...

2006-11-12T17:30:00.000+08:00

Well,this weekend's one slamming weekend! After a long and tiring week at work,analyzing clients' portfolios.. A chalet is just what i need to unwind and relax.

This chalet has been planned for quite a while now. It was to celebrate Sylvester's bdae. Rongyin (Sylvester's gf) planned this chalet discreetly..without Sylvester's knowledge. It's so sweet of her! =)

With the help of my dear, Ignatius, Edwin's mum and Jay, we've all managed to keep things under wraps. Planned everything down to the nitty gritty. =) They brought Sylvester to the chalet and told him tt there is a great chill out place there.

Then when they reached the chalet entrance, my dear,his younger bro and his mum shouted frm the chalet's 2nd storey and gave him a surprise.

He was in utter shock! Great surprise. He was pleasantly surprised, i wld imagine. I couldn't be there. Had to work. The chalet started on Thursday.I went only on Fri after work. Missed out a bunch of great food and fun but Fri was fab too.

Barbecued lotsa food. Had a delicious tiramisu cake and we all went bowling and played pool after wrapping up the barbecue. Or rather,Rongyin, Ignatius and Auntie bowled and we watched.

I had such a great time with my dear and his family. After pool,it was back to chalet for Winning 11! Hahaha! I didn't play. Was just a spectator. I reckon i was too tired to play. But everyone was a great sport and loadsa laughter. =)

Happy bdae, Slyvester! Hope u liked the surprise! =)

Slept overnight at the chalet and checked out on Sat morning. Made our way back to Edwin's place,unpacked,rested for a while and went to Chong Pang for lunch.The rest of the day was mainly resting and napping.. The weather was really good. Raining.. =)

When u start working,the weekends are what u look forward too. But u hate it when it comes to Sundays..coz u will think.. Darn..Back to work tmr. Contradicting eh? Well, everyone experiences tt. Tt's just part and parcel of life.

To my friends,hope u all have been doing well. I know i've not been online for a while coz i can't use MSN at work. For those who are still looking for jobs,hang in there. I'm sure things will look up soon. I have faith in u all! =) Jia you!

Sorry to those who msged me but i've not really been replying to,my apologies. And to Sarah and Ryan who has been asking me what i'm doing. I'm working as a Portfolio Analyst. Analyzing clients' portfolios,dealing with futures,bonds,FX,options & swaps related.. =)

Arsenal vs Liverpool tonight!! Liverpool! Yeah.. !!! =) Till the next entry......

A Long Week...

2006-11-05T15:46:00.000+08:00

Blogging is becoming a weekly affair for me now. I'm moving up to speed at work now and there are heaps of things to be done and learnt @ work. Pretty enriching,i must say.

I am very green in this field and thus i've got endless queries. However,seeing my colleagues being swarmed by their own accounts, i try to handle the problems or situations i meet by myself as much as possible.

When they look less stressed up,then i will "bombard" them with my questions. It's vital to learn fast and remember all the important procedures. It's a really good learning platform.
I'm happy tt i took up this job.

On Thursday,i did OT till 10pm and had some problems trying to get a cab. And when i did,the taxi driver made the trip home unpleasant. His driving is horrible! The cab kept jerking! I was so listless after working for the whole day,feeling weak and his driving almost made me puke.. Bad experience...

Still contemplating which gym to join. Back to Cali(where i'm accustomed to) or Fitness First(which is in the same building as my workplace)? Seriously need to get back to fitness and shape. =)

It's such a delight to see my dearie after a hard day at work. Met Edwin dearie after work on Friday @ Cityhall for dinner and shopping. Bought some accessories..Finally! hahaha! My dearie wld say..."No More Accessories,pipi!" hee... =)

My mum bought me a satin top frm Bysi for me. I adore tt top. Soft and unique.. =)

Sat and Sun are slacking days. Many pple must be rushing down to Vivocity to shop and take a look. I've not been there yet. How pathetic right? Hahaha..Let the mad rush die down and I'll go. Don't really fancy shopping with crowds. Heard tons of good stuff abt it. Let's hope it's name precedes itself. =)

Hmm....Monday's tmr..Back to work. Back to learning and the intriguing work.... =)

The Long Awaited Weekend

2006-10-29T12:46:00.000+08:00

Now i finally comprehend why working class pple always look forward to the weekend. A time for relaxation and rejuvenation. =)

Friday...

Met QM for lunch. He brought me to this place with nice duck rice but i ended up ordering chicken rice instead. I didn't knw tt they were well-known for their duck rice. Bummer! Never mind..there's always another chance. =)

The lunch crowd and long queue at the stall was insane! But it was real nice. We talked awhile after lunch about his job search. QM has not been himself lately. The incessant job search has gotten to him. I was kinda surprised to see him like tt.

He is one of optimism. Thus,sometimes even the more optimistic person,wld be affected by the lows and disappointments of life.

Cheer up,QM! Things will look up soon! =)

Saturday...

Went shopping again!! LOL! Had MOS Burger for lunch(haven't had it in ages!) but it ain't filling at all. Got some fruits at Far East Plaza and did some shopping there too. Wanted to expand my wardrobe for office clothes. But i couldn't seem to find anything at Far East tt i really faniced.

Ended up getting a white skirt for office from Bysi. This is soon becoming one of my fav stores! I love their flowery skirts. I will a few of those soon! And i can wear them on dress-down Friday and the week. =) Pay's gotta come in 1st!

Went back to Edwin's place. His mum is cooking prata and rendang curry today. It was sooooo tasty!

After tt,we watched the Liverpool vs Aston Villa match. The 99th successive time tt Rafa stuck to his rotation system. Rafa-tation! When is he going to cease and be sure abt his 1st XI? Arghz!

However, with goals frm Kuyt,Crouch & Garcia on Sat, the Reds are moving up the table. Max points! =) They wld have to improve on their devasting away form soon. Facing FC Bordeaux on Wed!

Sunday wld be a slack day. Watch dvd.Snack. Laze ard.

Monday..Start of work week.....................................................

1st Day @ Work + Fab Weekend

2006-10-24T10:50:00.000+08:00

Saturday...

Blogger is having probs again. Can't post some photos. Nvm. Will post when it's resolved.

Went for shopping in town with my dearie!! =) Bought alot of diff food frm
Taka Foodcourt,tt's what we always do.. and bought ice-cream. The $1
ice-cream with peanuts frm the ice-cream vendor outside Taka. Yummy!

Bought a hairdryer,a pair of peep-toed heels and a pair of pants.
Expanding my wardrobe for work. LOL!

After tt,we headed down to Lower Pierce Reservoir to have "Zhi Cha" to
celebrate Eric's bdae. Eric treated us and he ordered so much food! *faints*
Eric,Weizhou,Colin,Louis,my dear and me later went to a cafe called Liquid
Cafe for some drinks and desserts.

Eric was in such a good mood tt he ordered 5 different slices of cakes! The
best and most sinful one was the dark chocolate fudge cake. Sinfully
delightful! *burps* =)

Hung out there for a couple of hours,cracking jokes,catching up and talking
abt politics and so many other stuff. Had a good laugh too. What a nice way
to spend a Sat.

No longer am i tt clubbing bunny i used to be.
Now,the facade,smoke and alcohol turns me off. I miss the dancing frm time
to time though. But i'm fine with tt..Wait till i'm a couple of mths into the job, i can
sign up for Cali again and join the dance ,aerobic and bodycombat classes! =)

Sunday...

Didn't do much.. Slept till ard 11 and woke up to wash my clothes. Tons of
them! Been lazy..LOL! After which,i made my way to Edwin's place and had
lunch.

We rented a couple of DVDs and only managed to watch one: XMen III coz' we
were all in anticipation of the big match! Man U vs Liverpool. Arch rivals
like for eternity. =)

Sadly,Liverpool lost. Benitez shld have played Crouch earlier. Sad. But..I'm
still a loyal Liverpool fan. We may be 11pts behing the leaders but..dun
write us off just like tt. We are not going down without a fight!

Monday...

Couldn't really fall asleep last night. Was tossing and turning in my bed.
Perhaps i was a lil anxious abt work. Dunno what to expect.

Started work today. Had alot of stuff to read up. Read up more abt the co
and an senior analyst coached me on my daily tasks and job.

Everything baffled me. Well,it was totally foreign to me but i am sure the
learning curve wld be a steep one. =) I guess tt's the most impt for a fresh
grad like me.

Be more receptive and keep an open mind. It may be tough but i am going
weather thru it. After much practice, i'm sure i'll do just fine.

The colleagues were real nice and friendly though. Tt's always a plus. The
washroom and the water cooler's near me too.. Hee....

Hols for a day tmr and back to work on Wed...

2006-10-18T13:38:00.000+08:00

FINALLY!!

I've finally found a job! Yeah! Phew! Lady's Luck with me at last! Well, my effort and patience has paid off. =)

The long and tormenting job search ain't no fun at all. However,I've learnt quite a bit during this period of time. To be optimistic, be strong, be forward-looking..

Dearie, thanks for being so patient with me all this while. =) Taking my occasional nonsense and bad temper. Thanks for your understanding,love,concern,advice and everything tt u've done for me since day one. I love u,dear!

I've come to realise who are my true friends,pple who will always stick by you no matter what and always supporting u.I am so touched by all my friends' concern. Thanks everyone! =) A few wld be Syah,Janice,Syah,Pay Pay,Colin,QM... Simply to many to name..

Now,I'm going to focus on my new job. I hope to make a positive impact and get some good feedback frm my colleagues,team leader and boss at the end of 3mths of probation period.. =)

Tuesday...

It's Janice's bdae today.. Met up with her and charles near her workplace at raffles place for lunch. We gave Janice a treat. We had to..She's such a doll!Always there from me. So happy to have a friend like her. Thanks,babe! =) *hugs*

We had such a fab lunch @ Fig and Olive. I had Criss Cut Fish with melted cheese! Darn! It tastes fantastic,the melted cheese,criss cut fries and salad. Janice had some meat(chicken or something) with pasta and Charles had pasta.

Though it was just for a short hour or so,I've enjoyed myself. We caught up with each other's lives and glad to knw tt all 3 of us are happy. =)

Janice looks great in her polka doted dress and her black eyeshadow and long lashes! She looks like a doll! So sweet!

After lunch,Charles and i walked along raffles place. He went for an interview and i went to sign the employment letter with the bank.I am sooo delighted to get this job. Simply over the moon! I must and will work hard!

Rushed for an employee checkup before the clinic closes. Luckily i made it in time. =) X-ray on Thurs and meeting with the boss..

In all,I'm really looking forward to starting work next monday.. and blessed to have so many pple caring for me.. . =)

2006-10-10T13:34:00.000+08:00

My dear COOKED for me last Sunday!!! Though it was just instant noodles,i was really happy! Coz he NEVER cooks! *blissful* =) Thanks,dearie!

Finally i managed to run more than last week! Woke up a lil earlier today and the weather was much better. 4km only...but nvm, i'll improve slowly and attain my goal..5km under 30mins(i used to be able to do tt!)

Awfully bored at home now..perhaps a nice afternoon nap later.. *yawns*

Dun really knw what to write anymore. Boring day...

2006-10-05T16:38:00.000+08:00

Rejuvenate.Soul.Rejuvenate.

Went for a run at around 10am. A much needed run. Wanted to run 5km but the wretched weather ain't no help. The haze is not getting better. The sun's awfully hot and the air is still! Ended up running only 3km. Bummer!

However, thanks to the weather, i've become a lil darker by only running 3km. Imagine how hot the weather is! I reckon I'll have to get up much earlier the next time. But being the pig tt i am,tt's going to be tough. =)

Despite the weather, I'm feeling great after the run and a nice cold shower. Rejuvenated, i may add.

For me, running clears my mind. Alot of things become clearer. Esp. about the slow and stressful job search. It's a good way to start one's day. =)

The year's coming to an end and I've yet to accomplish my new yr's resolution, which is to shed a few kilos(3kilos!) and find a good job. Now, i'm on the path to achieving these two. I'm more concerned abt landing in a good job though. Hmmmmm....

Last night,my dear told me a quote : "If we look at what others don't have and what we have,we'll be happy. However, if we look at what others have and what we don't have, we'll never be happy even if we have the wealth tt could fill the 7 seas."

Now, how easy is it to always look at things in this perspective? But i think it is very true. Like what my dear said, it's more of a motivation quote.

My friends who are working now are always telling me how stressed up they are at work and wish they could be like me, slacking..

On the other hand, I'm constantly telling them how hard is it for me to find the kinda jobs tt i want and how i wish i am in their shoes. Now, even temp or contracts are not easy to get.

Like the saying goes, " The grass is always greener on the other side."

Yesterday, a lady told me tt banks dun really hire during the mths Oct-Dec! That is info i dun wanna hear! *fingers crossed*

I get peeved easily these mths since the start of my job search. Starting to feel more uptight and useless lately. Geez...

Hopefully, NLP, more positive self-talk and engaging in things tt make me happy wld help me get a better grip of my emotions and not be easily affected by my surroundings... =)

2006-10-03T13:34:00.000+08:00

Neuro-Linguistic Programming (NLP)...

I stumbled across this article about NLP recently. It is the latest self-help fix tt promises to boost confidence, fix dyslexia, cure a phobia... However,due to common misconceptions, NLP doesn't change what you think, it simply changes the way you think about it.

It works miraclously for those niggling everyday things such as low self-esteem, losing weight, increasing motivation...the list goes on.

I reckon a good example wld be if u r wanting to exercise more, u imagine what it'd feel like to be fit and toned. Alternatively,u cld imagine feeling exhausted but proud of urself for doing the exercise and how good you wld feel afterwards. Different techniques work for different pple.

Personally,I wld imagine the earlier. =)

Once you are used to this fix, ur body does it automatically. It also has a ripple effect. When u change one thing, it wld also affect other areas in ur life.

However, the flip side of the coin wld be tt the symtoms of the problem are treated, the cause of the problem itself remains untouched. I beg to differ though. It wld defintely aid pple.

I'm gonna start adopting this fix. To ditch those inner demons, change the negative voice in my head to Donald Duck and perhaps it will lose the power it has over me.

Cast away all negative emotions and make way for the good ones. Arm myself with emotional makeover tools. Do what makes me smile and laugh everyday. =)

I dun wish to be constantly glum or downcasted,it affects myself and pple ard me who loves and cares for me.

Mind is key. Key to be above the cheery par.. =)

I'm feeling better and more convinced tt things wld be better now..by just writing this entry. =)

Mooncakes + KTV + shopping

2006-10-02T15:29:00.000+08:00

Friday...

Went to Taka for dinner after dearie's long day at work. Had Jap noodles,A1 curry puffs and Takopachi for dinner. Ohh... and strawberry + mango ice cream! LOL! Main purpose for going down to Taka was to buy mooncakes. Hordes of pple! Geez...

Aim: Get the famous D24 Durian mooncakes frm Goodwood Park Hotel and source for nice traditional ones.After trying and comparing prices, we settled for Raffles the Plaza's White Lotus Paste with Hazelnut mooncakes. It was love at 1st taste! LOL! The hazelnuts in it made it taste extraordinary! =)

After tt, we met up with Slyves, Rongyin and Ignatius and headed to Cine's KTV. Miss Rongyin was smart. She made a reservation. If not,we might have some probs getting a room. It was jammed packed!Sang to my hearts' content! And i had so much fun!

Going to KTV..definitely have to sing Jay Chou's songs and my best song.. 遗失的美好... =)
U knw what they say abt singing frm ur diapraghm? I tried tt the whole night and it was good abs exercise! =) a little more toned now.. hee.....

Saturday...

Woke up a little later than usual today coz we were out late last night. Slept only at 330am! =) Going to make a trip to town again today.. for a different purpose.. Shopping! Retail Therapy!! Yeah! Wore one of my fav skirts today! I adore the elaborate prints on the skirt! =)

Had lunch at BK at Raffles City and walked ard Raffles City. Went to G2000 and bought a shirt coz it wld come in handy in the future for work. Besides, it's good to have another choice of shirt when going for interviews and i had 30% discount! =)

Went to MPH for some mags browsing and left the bookstore with 2mags worth $13 for myself! My dear left with 2 too! Usually,i wld only spend $4.20 on CLEO every mth. But today,i guess i'm in the shopping mood..tt's why! =) or perhaps to fill the loneliness and emptiness i feel looking for jobs each day..

Saw this really nice bag and shoe frm Charles and Keith. Peep-toed heels. What i always wanted! In love with it when i saw both items. Spent a little while deciding which i shld get. Wanted to get both,but i wld be so broke after getting both.Left Charles and Keith reluctantly..not getting anything. While i was walking ard,my mind lingered ard those lovely shoes and bag.

After much thought,i decided to get the bag instead. Now..another problem presents itself. Which colour? Off-white colour or the dark brown one..Spent close to 10mins in front of the mirror,contemplating.. Finally,my dear decided for me....the Dark Brown one! Love it! Paid less than the usual price coz i have discount too!! Yippee!

Fantastic day.. but maybe not a very fab one for my dear..He had to listen to me go on abt what to buy,which is nice and slogging the 4 heavy mags we bought, Sorry,darling! Thanks for accompanying me and the wise advice tt u've given me on Sat and ever since Day 1 tt we've known each other. *muacks* =)

Being the satisfied consumer tt i am, i can't help but kept looking at my purchases.. What to do? U knw... there can never be enough clothes,bags,accessories and shoes for a lady.. =)

Still hanging on....

2006-09-14T15:57:00.000+08:00

It's pouring now. Been pouring since noon. As the wretched weather continued on, my concentration drifted..

My thoughts drifted..To so many issues and scenarios.. hmmm...

It is impt to know what u want.And when u do,stay focussed. Coz what u focus expands...That's very true.

Right now,I'm still waiting for phone calls for interviews.I've sent out tons of resumes. But as many of u knw,it's competitive in the banking industry.esp if u are only a fresh grad.

Waiting for 2recruitment agencies to call now.One for the ML job,the other's a temp job. When will they call?! The wait's antangonizing...

Just recently,it dawned upon me tt i'm afraid to take the 1st step. 1st step to working to what i want. It is easy for me to stay focussed. To start,tough.

Looking for job hinges on a whole bunch of luck. I guess i'm lacking in tt department for now. But,heads up! Life can't be at the low all the time. =)

The kind of job i wanna do requires exp and i'm only a fresh grad. So,i guess i've gotta start slow. A baby step at a time,maybe frm temp. Gain exposure and build network.

I can't thank everyone enough for their advice,guidance and concern for me all this while. My dear,my gfs,my mum,QM,Colin and many others. Thanks once again.

I'm hanging in there.......

2006-09-11T15:38:00.000+08:00

Jay's back.........!!!!!!

Yipee!!! The much anticipated Jay Chou's new album is finally out! Still Fantasy is the title. And the wait is worthwhile. He is super duper talented man! I've really gotta hand it to him. Most accomplised and popular artist in Asia. Not to forget... cute looking too!! *winks*

His new album is filled with loadsa great tracks. Fast songs,slow romantic tracks and some jazz flavour in it too. He is versatile. Not many artists these days can carry off so many diff types of music. He can do rap(fantastically!),love songs,jazz,acts and he compose lyrics and music for himself and many other artists too.

Seems like i'm promoting him eh? Nah..I'm just full of admiration for him. Now..i just can't seem to stop listening to his new album..esp. track 5 ( 退后）. So for all of u that have not gotten his new album,go get it now! =) back to jay...

2006-09-08T13:41:00.000+08:00

Slowly but surely...

It has been a week since the release of my final yr results. I've come to term with my results. Disappointed i may be, i will not and must not let it dominate me. Academic qualifications are impt,but it ain't everything..I'm back.........!!!!!!!!! hahaha....

Finally,I'm looking for jobs again.. Started a few days ago..This incessant job search is taking a toil on me and many out there,i reckon. Well,what to do? Just continue to have faith and perserve. Thanks everyone for trying to cheer me up during this week. =)

Still keeping my fingers crossed..Hope to get short-listed for the ML job..

To Syah,Caixia and Stephanie.. U gals have started week for abt a week already. Hope u all are coping well. Jia you! *hugs*

Shopping tmr! Yeah...!! Retail therapy always help,always rejuvenating...

2006-09-01T10:51:00.000+08:00

WHY DOES IT HAVE TO BE ME???!!!!!!!!!!

I've worked hard for it. So hard..only those close to me knows how much effort i've put in for my exams. Last night, some pple were happy with their results and some weren't.

Sadly, I belong to the latter. They say, "God helps those who help themselves." I have worked hard,but where is God in all of these. For the past 22yrs, I have experienced more heartache and disappointment than happiness. My life is screwed up. Perhaps i should resign to my cruel fate.

From having a pathetic childhood,almost nonexistent family,disappointing grades(not like i've not studied!!),countless heartaches to now... Screwed up uni grades(2nd lower).

Some pple got their 1st class honours(congrats,i knw u deserve it). Some deserve their 2nd upper(like Qiao Ming) and some don't! Those tt don't..U dun even study till a few weeks before exams(never consistent). Assholes! Someone who got 2nd upper knew tt i'm upset abt my grades had the cheek to call me and tell me this," I dunno how did i get the 2nd upper. My grades are seriously no good."

In my mind,i was like," What the hell?! Trying to rub salt into my wounds is it?" I am disappointed in her. She of all pple... i dunno what to say...

2nd lower class to alot of pple is still considered not bad.. To me,that is just not acceptable. I have failed myself. Yes,i have! I locked myself in my room and cried till my eyes were swollen for an hr + . Sorry to those who called me and i refuse to answer or talk.

As of now,i'm still hurting. I dunno how to deal with the pain. Cry more? Eat like there's no tomorrow? Exercise till i'm so jaded tt i collapse?

My heart refuses to accept what my brain already knows. Anyway,thank you my dearie for always supporting me. Thank you Syah,Qiao Ming and Adrain for trying to comfort me last night...........................

2006-08-30T13:04:00.000+08:00

The imminent D* day....

The long-awaited day is finally arriving. I dunno if i'm exactly looking forward to the release of results. On one hand, i want to know the results so tt it might help in my job applications. On the other hand, i'm scared of facing the reality. Afraid tt i might not get the grades tt i want. People always say, " You can do it,Michelle". I can only try to be as optimistic as possible.

High hopes = huge disappointment

I'll have to stay grounded. Some of my frens have already secured a job,so the results wld not affect their job. For me,it pivots on my grades. It wld help so much if i got tt 2nd upper class. But to get tt,i need ALL 4subs this yr to be >60 !! Geez.. Not easy at all.

If i dun meet tt requirement, it will be just a 2nd lower class honours.. Which is not exactly good.
Still waiting for phone calls for interviews. I still do look ard for jobs. Just tt,waiting for the date of release of the results is nerve-wrecking! Hmmmm......

2006-08-28T16:49:00.000+08:00

Shout out ...

To all at SIM.. you guys must be as anxious as me. Geez.. When on earth are the results coming out? As it is,we are on the losing end compared to other uni grads.. Bummer!

Caixia,u are looking prettier! U go,babe! =) Melyvn, I hope things will work out well for u.
Qiao Ming, hope ur time at UOB will be a fruitful one and the credit department will be "fun" ! Hahaha!

Fingers crossed for D* day..

Went for an interview @Robert Walters today. Hope all will turn out well..

2006-08-27T14:32:00.000+08:00

26th August - Dearie's 24th bdae...

Spent the weekend celebrating my dear's bdae. We went to Pepper Lunch for the tantalizing Curry Beef Rice. Yummy! Met dear's bro at Kino for the 2nd time this mth..Sg is real small. Bought American Choco and Wild Cherries ice-cream frm Gelatossimo. Great desserts for such a hot weather like yest. Slyves have not had his lunch when we met him,so we headed to NYDC. Ordered onion rings,Slyves had pasta and we ordered one of their famous mudpies (Band Aid). Though Edwin and I were real full,we couldn't say no to this reallllyyyyyy nice mudpie..Lots of nuts and raisin! =) I was so engrossed with enjoying the mudpie,tt i forgot to take some pics of it!

Ohh..I met Adrian at Paragon while shopping ard! Haven't met him since exams.. Someone's doing good now..A Banker! Geez..the gals must flocking to u now eh,dude? LOL! Great to see u and knw tt u are doing well. I knw,I knw... Our exam results will be released within these 2weeks.. I'm anxious!!!

Met Rongyin and made our way back to Edwin's place. We had Fuzhou's famous ang zao,Classic Italian and Singapura Special pizzas and Swensen's Special ice-cream cake for dinner! Wah! I had such a great day.. with all the mouth-watering fab food! *winks*

Dear,just wanna wish u happy bdae again. Hope tt u liked ur presents and enjoyed urself. Everything will be smooth sailing and continue to do ur best in all tt u do k? I'm always
here.supporting u... *hugs* =) i wld love to put on more pics but there is something wrong with the website. Will upload more once the problem is cleared..

2006-08-23T10:16:00.000+08:00

Insomia kicks in...

Insomia has been part of my lifestyle recently. Deprivation of sleep renders me cranky. I may feel tired every night when i lay in bed,getting ready to fall asleep but i just can't seem to fall asleep as easily as before. I toss and turn until the wee hours in the morning. Sara.. I'm like you now.. Hahaha!

As if it is not bad enough, I have weird dreams and sometimes nightmares. Dreams that i have no recollection of when i wake up. Since i can't put my finger to its content, sometimes i just assume that it did not actually happen.

Dreams often portray events which are impossible or unlikely in physical reality, and are usually outside the control of the dreamer. Similar to alot of people, I too have sought meaning in my dreams. I guess dreams are a response to neural processes during sleep, psychologically as reflections of the unconscious or even predictions of the future.

In restrospect, I guess it doesn't really matter what ur dreams are about. I believe in destiny. If it is meant to happen,it will. Sometimes the dream does become reality and i will go like, " Deja Vu! " Hahaha! I guess my crankiness is taking charge soon.. blabbering now...

What do you expect? Doing the same-o stuff everyday at home...Honestly,i feel incapacitated to a certain extent. It's antagonizing! Since i'm free like a bird,i might as well work my ass off. Exercise till i could no longer. Today will be the start. I've not pushed myself for a long time. I love the adrenalin rush! The endorphins makes one happy and that is what i need,what i crave.....

2006-08-21T15:10:00.000+08:00

Weekend Sentosa Trip~!

Went to suntan @ Sentosa with my dear. It was crowded as usual and there was some Family Day event going on too. Had to walk around for a while to find a quiter place to enjoy the sun,sand and sea. The trip was cut short due to a drizzle. Bummer! However,I had a great time.

After showering, we headed to town to satisfy our rumbling stomachs. LOL! We were famished,alright. Ordered Japanese noodles,A1 Curry puffs and Tako Pachi! And what's a good meal without the desserts? Well,we ordered 2diff flavours of ice-cream from Gelato(Dark Choco and Hazelnut). Heavenly! *winks* =)

The long-awaited EPL season has finally started! Shef. United vs Liverpool is the 1st game. Liverpool!! They had a disappointing match and only managed a draw..A controversial one too! Geez.. It's alright! This is a competition of 10mths. The Reds will hang on and fight for the Premiership title! =)

2006-08-16T17:32:00.000+08:00

Perservance is the path to the success...

The above was said to me by my best friend, Davis. The search for a full-time job is infuritating. It's getting on my nerves so much tt i keep lamenting the same things and worries to my boyfriend and friends. Thank you everyone for being so patient and understanding with me. Thanks for all the valuable advice. I really do appreciate it.

Some think that is a smooth sailing and easy process. Some don't bother to understand. I comprehend why. So many of my friends have gotten a job,some of them landed themselves in pretty good ones. I'm happy for them,trust me when i say so. However, I have to admit. I'm envious. Perhaps luck is one contributing factor. A large one,i reckon.

Sorry,my dear and my close friends for my mood swings these days. I dun wanna be like this too. I will perserve everyone! Up and on! =)

A little dose of faith goes a long way in curing a whole deal of worries..

2006-08-07T13:51:00.000+08:00

Almost A Week Since My Last Entry...

Thursday...
It was my mum's off-day,so i spent the day with her. Nothing much...just went out..Mother & daughter.. went for a hair-cut and visit my nephew @ Serangoon.
Baby Jayden's sooooo cute! He will grow up to be a charmer like my dear cousin,Adeline and her hubby,Jeremy.. =) I'm clueless when it comes to carrying a baby.. As u can see from the pics.. Jayden don't look too happy.. He was probably praying that i would pass him back to his grandma.. Hahaha....

Saturday...

Headed to my dearie's place after making breakfast for him. =) Hope u really liked it,dearie. It wasn't much. Just toast,eggs,ham and cheese. We went down to Suntec to shop around for jigsaw puzzles. Sadly,there was not much choices around or rather..only a few designs caught our eye. Geez! Jigsaw puzzles are costly man! 100+ bucks for a 2000 puzzle frame.. Didn't buy anything in the end. Met up with Sylves,Rongyin and dear's mum to shop for some groceries. Sylves is the chef today. He is cooking pasta for us. Rongyin made the garlic butter bread spread too! Woo....Fantastic dinner. Alot of ingredients were included in the pasta.. I just hung around the kitchen to catch a glimpse of the chef in action and help spread the garlic butter. Thanks for dinner, Sylves and Rongyin. It was really nice... Yummy...!! =)

Sunday...

Slept till real late today..11am,i guess.. Made my way to dearie's house.. =) going to his place to make caramel pudding today. Haven't made it in years.. Worried tt it wouldn't turn out as i wanna it to be. Went to Causeway Pt for lunch and to get the neccessary ingredients for the caramel pudding.. Brown sugar,flour,milk,ice-cream,dates and butter... Kinda fumbled around the kitchen.. LOL! =) prepared the caramel sauce and the filling with the help of my dearie..Thanks,dear! Was so worried tt it wouldn't be successful.. After an hour of preparing and baking, the caramel pudding is done. I put too much brown sugar,causing the caramel sauce to be too sweetttttttt...... Goodness! I'll watch it next time..Sorry to everyone who tried it. Was contemplating of adding apples and nuts (in replacement of the dates) the next time round. =)

2006-08-01T11:47:00.000+08:00

Another Fabulous Weekend~~ !!

Saturday...
Finally the weekend is here! Went to Baybed Bar to chill with my dear,his brother(Sylvester) and his gf(Rongyin). Nice cosy beds,warm lighting,chill out music and great drinks. This place is good for its Martini. I had a really good lychee martini. =)
Went for prata @ Thomson Rd. Shared a prata kosong with Rongyin. Haha! We were both afraid of the fatty late night supper but my dear and Sylves went for it! Lol! There are more pics but they are with Rongyin and Sylves..

Sunday...
Left home early and head down to Sim Lim Square with dearie to get comp memory.
After tt,we went to California Pizza Kitchen for to die for food! We ordered the Milan Neapolitian Pizza. It has grilled Italian sausages,sweet Italian sausages,caramalized onions,sauteed wild mushrooms and 3 types of cheese(Parmesan,Mozzarella and Fontina)! Absolutely heavenly! Every bite is filled with sausages,mushrooms and cheese. Tantalizing! Yummy! =)

We had desserts to end this fab lunch and it just gets better! We had Tiramisu and Banana Chocolate Royale Cake which we struggled to finish! The desserts are just divine... All the choco fudge on the Banana Chocolate Cake and the taste of alchohol in the tiramisu... Wah..
The pizza and the desserts are the best i've ever had. I'll definitely come back for more soon..
What makes it even better is tt i had all these in the company of my one and only... =)

Friday, 28th July 2006

2006-07-28T13:42:00.000+08:00

No More Drama!

I've had it,man! Depressions,disappointments,mood swings..Geez! I think i must go for anger management classes or seek pyschatric help if i dun get a hold of myself.. What made me like this? Well, try staying at home every weekday alone,doing the same thing every day. Wake up in the morning to look and apply for jobs,wait to be called up for interviews,eat,watch telly,web surfing.... Crappy,no?

My dearie asked me to try to add more variation in my daily life. I try to. Intending to go for jogs(weather's haven't been of any help),reading...
Friends are all bz,either with their new found jobs or with other stuff. =( sigh...

It's tough but i must! I absolutely have to! Get a grip of urself,Michelle! Arghz... Starting frm today,i'll be as optimistic as i can,look ahead and cut down on the incessant whining. This way,it wld be good for myself and for pple ard me who care for me and love me. =)

Since i'm at home most of the time,little activity wld lead to the accumulation of CELLULITE(yucks...!!!). I came across this tip recently. It is better to have a filling & nutritious breakfast and a lighter dinner. As the old saying goes, " Breakfast for a king, lunch for a prince and dinner for a pauper."
That wldn't be enough though.. exercise and moderation is real vital. =)

Btw,Ruud van Nistelrooy is heading to Real Madrid! Bummer! Like my dear Edwin says, who on earth is going to score against the stupid Chelsea? No worries, I'm sure Liverpool,Newcastle and many underdogs can't wait for the season to start and kick Chelsea's ass!

Hope Steve Mcclaren wld make his decision soon. Make a wise choice. Choose Gerrard to be England's captain! Who else deserves it more than him? He is the most consistent player in Liverpool,England and i dare say the WORLD. I'll be awaiting for the good news..hopefully.. *fingers crossed* =)

Tuesday, 25th July 2006

2006-07-25T13:38:00.000+08:00

I was watching the Oprah Winfrey Show this afternoon and i came across something interesting but also heart-wrenching..

Sirenomelia or Mermaid Syndrome is a very rare disorder in which the legs are fused together, giving the appearance of a mermaid. This condition is found in approximately one out of every 100,000 live births (about as rare as conjoined twins) and is usually fatal within a day or two of birth because of complications associated with abnormal kidney and bladder development and function.

Only a handful of cases of patients, who did not have the usual kidney and bladder complications, have survived this condition, two of them being a gal frm USA and Milagros frm Peru. Both were treated with heavy plastic reconstructive surgery

Milagros(Miracle in spanish) was born with her genitals were in her rectum. Doctors could not determine the sex of the baby. Surgeons had to separate her legs and the surgery was being shown all across Peru. Miraculously, the baby gal survived the delicate surgery and according to doctors, she should be able to walk when she grows up.

Monday, 24th July 2006

2006-07-24T13:28:00.000+08:00

Went to East Coast Park with my dearie Edwin and his family to cycle on Saturday. It was also his younger bro's 17th bdae . Happy bdae again, Ignatiaus ! Thumbs for for learning how to cycle in less than 2hrs and on ur bdae.. =)

Had heaps of fun with everyone and my arse hurts after 3hrs of cycling! After tt,we took the RIGHT bus but took the wrong direction and ended up taking an hour to reach Bedok Interchange which should have taken less than half an hour otherwise! LOL!

Made our way to Chomp Chomp @ Serangoon Gardens for dinner and it was packed! Had to wait ard for seats and there were 7 of us in all. Lucky us..we managed to get seats faster than we thought. Ordered heaps of food.. 50 sticks of Satay,"tua tao",Hokkien mee,Stingray,Char Kway Teow,"Wu Xiang",Carrot Cake and 7big glasses of sugarcane drinks! Wah..had such a hearty and fab meal..

Spent Sunday chilling out at my dear's place. Watched Hitch ( totally hilarious!),ate great food and slacked.. =) Dear,thanks for every moment tt we spent together. U never cease to make me happy.. *Muacks...* =)

Wednesday, 19th July 2006

2006-07-19T15:07:00.000+08:00

I learnt something new today. So,i thought of sharing it with those of u who read my blog..

FAIRY PENGUINS

The world's smallest penguins living in Syndey Harbour are currently facing endangerment and alot of people( including myself! ) do not even know tt they exist. These penguins are only about 40cm tall in height. These penguins are opportunists at heart,not shy about moving into territories occupied by other. They only come ashore under the cover of darkness and live underground in burrows.

They live year-round in large colonies, with each individual breeding pair forming a burrow in which to raise their chicks (of which two are born at a time). They feed by hunting fish, squid, and other small sea animals, for which they travel and dive quite extensively.

Whilst not endangered as a whole, colonies in areas with significant human activity are under some threat from pollution and feral animals. In Australia , they were once common along the southern coast line but the introduction of domestic cats has dramatically reduced their viable habitat. They are now primarily restricted to cat free islands off the coast.

I'm completely charmed by this little creatures, perhaps coz of the way they walk (waddle,rather! ) =)

Saturday, 15th July 2006

2006-07-15T21:23:00.000+08:00

Went to meet up with Prabu yesterday supposedly for coffee @ Lot1 but alas! Coffee Bean is no longer there! Blur Prabu... stays at CCK & yet have no idea tt Coffee Bean does not exist anymore. We headed to Macs to chill and catch up instead. =) It was nice to meet up with friends to catch up since everyone is always caught up with the hustle and bustle of the city.

After that, I met up with my dearie for prata @ Casurina! Crispy and scrumptuous prata! Yummy! =)

Filling our stomachs,we took a brisk walk along Old Upper Thomson Road. Many pple wld like to chill out @ coffee clubs,pubs or to bogey the night away in the clubs on a Friday night. For me, I would love nothing but to be able to spend quality time with my dearie.

Walking all the way to Lower Pierce Reservoir, sitting under the starry sky in my Edwin's loving arms brings me so much joy tt i wouldn't trade for anything else. =)

Today's shopping day with my dearest! Went to Cine for lunch. Jap food was good! hee.. Shopped till i dropped. Bought alot of bargain clothes! So happy! Another splendid day with my Edwin. =)

FOOD FOR THOUGHT...

Oil prices are likely to soar due to crisis in the Middle East. But will the rising of the oil prices spin out of control ? $70/barrel is costly enough & it's still about to escalate. Hmmm.... What will the effect be on consumers like us?

Hope the UN or some global organisation would start carrying out some inflationary measures soon....

Friday, 14th July 2006

2006-07-14T12:27:00.000+08:00

PRATA DAY today! Going to have prata at Casurina with my dearest Edwin for dinner. 1 cheese, 2 Ko Song & 1 Egg coming right up for my dear bf! 1 Cheese and 1 Ko Song for me.. =)

Can't wait for dinner time to come..to spend quality time with my Edwin..

Just a short posting now. Will post some pics later..

Thursday, 13th July 2006

2006-07-13T14:02:00.000+08:00

Today's the day! Yep! The opening of the long-awaited movie, Pirates Of The Caribbean : Dead Man's Chest ! =) It broke movie opening's record in the US when it opened. I'm totally EXCITED about it.

Hmmm..yet another boring stay home day. Waiting for calls to be short-listed for interviews. Sigh.... FA and Recruitment Consultant jobs are in abundance. So many jobs require experience. Won't companies have a little empathy for fresh graduates like me? It's demanding and challenging in job search these days.

Well,I must be optimistic! I must! Chin up,tt's what Syah told me. Thanks for the word of encouragement,babe! The real deal takes a while,i reckon. =)

So,it's back to couch slacking and to countdown to the much anticipated movie....

Wednesday, 12th July

2006-07-12T21:53:00.000+08:00

Bombs in India during Tuesday evening rush suggests the works of terrorists. 9/11 , 7/7 , 11/7 ... these are obviously signs of terrorism but why do world leaders just always respond with much empathy and no action? Is it not within their power?

I doubt so. Terrorism, border disputes, rising oil prices and North Korea's impudence.. Disturbing world events are occurring on a frequent basis now,it seems. It is time for world leaders to rise to the occasion and deal with such issues. Perhaps these would be on the agenda list in the impending G8 Summit in St. Petersburg from 15 th - 17th July.

Btw, 60,000 pieces of the Berlin Stadium pitch for the World Cup Finals 2006 is up for sale at US$95 per piece! I reckon Italy would have some inquiries and reservations. =)

Well, on the lighter note..most of you would know that I've been searching around for jobs and the progress is slow and little response. Oh well, the start is always tough,no? I've got so much time to myself now tt i dunno what to do with it!

No source of income,slacking on my couch channel browsing away.. that's almost no life eh? But a lot of pple tell me..Enjoy this period now,for when it is over and when you start working, it's freedom no more. Yep,i suppose that makes some sense. =)

I always say this:we learn something new everyday. And of course i learn something new today. About myself. I learnt it from my bf actually.

He said : “You being a Gemini,possesses two different faces, two different characters sometimes, u feel that u are comfortable with one choice... but as time goes along, more often than not, u will question your other choice It's just your the other personality, that tries to come out.
As a result, although u don't realise it yourself, sometimes, u tend to self-contradict. Gemini, aren't always good decision makers. “

When i read what he typed over MSN,i started to ponder.. Am i like tt too?
i guess so much of what he said is the truth. Now with the amt of time i have in hand, i start reflecting on my past and the feel of nostalgia isn't always good.

I get to learn more things, increase my knowledge and fuel tt inquisitive mind of mine. Lol ! I hope to make good use of my time but those lazy bones of mine can be pretty persistent. =)

My 1st posting.. =)

2006-07-12T21:41:00.000+08:00

This is my 1st entry in my blog.

Been wanting to write a diary or journal for the longest time..but many of you out there would agree with me. It takes a fair amount of discipline and time to keep up with the writing.

I certainly hope tt i can do tt and share with those of you who read my blog some insight into my life and views. =)